Suppose you have still maintained your friendships from the past. You are fortunate. As you age, you start to lose touch, or fall out, with friends you grew up with. It is rare to have people who knew you in childhood, especially as you get older. Having old friends can help fill in the gaps between imagination and reality, but that could also be a bad thing!
Having done readings for over thirty years, it still intrigues me when a client contacts me and says they had come for reading over ten years ago. I use this opportunity to ask questions about where I had met them as it reminds me of my journey. I like to reminisce on those times, how far I have come, and all I have learned, including those who have come and gone from my life.
Selfies weren’t invented back in the day, and it was usual to have boxes of photographs you could reminisce over. My photo collection has a gap from when camera phones were invented. I now have sporadic family pictures, all digital! If technology blows up, all the photos will disappear. How big is that cloud?
There is nothing nicer than holding a polaroid. I realised this when a friend showed me an old photograph of our children when they were around two. Her daughter and my son were sitting on the steps of her house eating ice cream. I took a photo of the photo! But what surprised me the most was holding that photograph and being transported back in time. Where did we live, who was around, and what was the occasion? You could almost smell the past.
There is nothing like an old photograph. It evokes emotion as you recall the stories around it. People would take photos because of an event or occasion. Not just random selfies for no real reason except narcissism (love and light people)
The film would be taken to the store to be developed, and you waited a week to get them back. There you would pick them up and together recall the stories, and memories were created as you are reminded of what you looked like or how you felt at the time. Were you happy or sad? Are the people still in touch?
I talked to a friend about not recalling much when I was eighteen, nor did I have photos around that age. I had forgotten what type of person I was, my fashion sense (bad being the 80s), and my personality. You did not take photos of yourself and post them online; none of that existed. When I discussed this with a friend, she asked about an old boyfriend I went out with when I was eighteen. It was a conversation around the ‘what’s’. What is he doing now, what does he look like, and what has happened? The algorithms of the exchange must have gotten into the ether. Without a word of a lie, I received a message from him. Via Facebook, he said he was cleaning out his stuff and found an old photo of us. There I was, an eighteen-year-old girl with an eighteen-year-old boy. I was once so young and innocent, not like the girls today. They have so much more confidence. I sent the image to my kids and said, “Look, mum was young once.” They ignored me!
I was slim, youthful, and innocent, dressed in a sparkly red top and a cream skirt, which I would have made, as I did back then—looking loved up with my man, who looked attentive towards me, with his arms around me. Were we in love? To the untrained eye, we may have looked that way. He wore red pants and a cream top; weirdly, we were colour-coordinated. I joked that we should capture that day, dress up the same, and take a photo.
I asked him where we were going. All dressed up in our eighty’s clothes. Of course, he would not remember, as I did not.
A picture paints a thousand words. Sadly, that young man broke my 18-year-old heart. Did we reconnect as older people? Yes, we met up thirty years later. Captured the fun times, remembered the bad times, and caught up to what we are doing now. Once the conversation ended, we reconnected to our current lives and said goodbye.
Should the past stay in the past?
Friends come and go. But the memories remain. Our brain has a way of manipulating memory, good or bad. Photographs can speak a thousand words, like the happy photograph of two 18-year-olds. My story and his memory of that picture would differ, but does that matter?
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As we go into 2023 please take time out over this period as we prepare for the new year. I have been spending time with my family and friends, and I realise how I needed this recharge as we move into a passionate Full Moon in Cancer in January 2023.
Cancer is more about humanity, within you and the environment. Cancer love to be safe and secure. As we move into 2023, we will see significant changes that will affect you for the rest of your life. Emotional and physical healing energy will be apparent. Creation, Passion and a lot of change, and fast!
So get your running shoes on!
In the first half of 2023, you may need to self-select the changes. You will look at your inner state and decide what you want to change.
Bring more love into your life as we move into a passionate year.
If you are single, watch for the new relationships
You will notice your priorities change if you are in an unfulfilling relationship.
If you love money. Big money in stocks etc.
We are all going through a change in values, where your values will change to be more towards what warms your heart rather than your bank balance.
With humanitarian energy, you will see more recognition of human rights around you, and they will be heard.
You will attract the best life this year if you can express positive energy. Do not put a cap on your manifestations.
A lot of (7) numbers in 2023 A significant new beginning.
This is about individuality, and spirituality, where science and spirituality come together. I love science and spirituality. Watch that connection happen.
2023 is the beginning of a new cycle of 7 years. The past few years have been difficult. Do not make any; as your destiny unfolds, you will need to do new things, change habits and find that heart-centred love.
Be the director in your life this year; this means how you conduct yourself.
Lack of integrity and dishonesty will present themselves; this is often shown publicly in politics (Election year)
We made it this far; we have rebuilt and continue to do so. You will have a clear direction this year as the changes become apparent.
It is a time to show patience and watch what happens.
My patience started on my way to Sydney. Flying from Auckland to Sydney is a simple trip. What should have been a few hours turned out to be a 30-hour trip to get to my destination.
Angry, tired, frustrated, and hot (and not in a good way), we were diverted to Melbourne. I lost sight of myself and the bigger picture. I was ready to lose my mind as we stood in the queue to get another flight until a young girl started talking to me. We began to joke, and before I knew it, my mood had changed. The airline put us all in a lovely hotel in Melbourne, and we met many people in the same position as us. We came together, had a meal, laughed and made new friendships. Humanity stepped in that day as everyone in that queue felt for each other. No one got angry at the airline and accepted that this was where we needed to be.
There was a collective empathy among everyone. Everyone talked with each other. So when you change your frequency to a different state, you move into a family frequency coming together in humanity.
Enjoy 2023, and watch the magic happen.
Also it is the year of the Rabbit. In the Chinese culture, the rabbit is known to be the luckiest out of all the twelve animals
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I often talk about blocks, and seven-year cycles, some may say I go on about it! Releasing subconscious blockages is not as scary as it sounds. I recall 100 years ago when I was learning past life regression, (it feels like it!) where regression was described as a COW (opening a can of worms) and most clinical hypnotherapists do not like practising it or teaching it, so often I was called upon to teach this regression. To understand your past you really need to understand who you are today.
Change brings a challenge into your life where your ego does not have a say in the new direction.
The shadow exists as part of the unconscious mind and is composed of repressed ideas, weaknesses, desires, instincts, and shortcomings – Carl Yung
Recently, I have found that most of my clients and friends are going through some changes in their life. Leaving jobs seems to be the main change, moving towards more of a lifestyle that brings balance. Priorities over passion, fun and creativity seem to be the thought process- However, the change comes with that inner critic that can talk us out of living the life we deserve.
When we show up and identify that we are not living the life we deserve this often triggers thoughts of the past.
“Many come to me to heal. Healing gives you leverage to move forward, but your shadow of the past will always exist. Consciously understanding your past and confronting your compressed truth allows you to be untraumatized”
Sometimes a situation may occur that triggers a behaviour within yourself that you
1. May not be aware that you had.
2. You thought you had dealt with it.
When we talk about a Shadow, immediately we are taken to a dark scary place, where we have locked away trauma. Unexplained emotions and decisions take over our personality, manifesting as irrational behaviour and we immediately label ourselves as having a self-sabotaging type of personality.
Shadow work is a term used in the psychology world, a disowned part of your personality, born in childhood and is a byproduct of your upbringing.
We are born with traits, you may have been born a sensitive soul, but your upbringing could be where your upbringing does not allow that behaviour, (that man-up behaviour) So you shut down your true self to adapt to the environment. Just an example of how we are conditioned to our environment. As you become older, and more evolved, the shadow aspect of your personality presents itself in certain behaviours- these are called triggers. Fragmented aspects of your personality that you project to the world. This is where we notice this projection as we look in the mirror.
Triggers are your best friend, as they show you your wounds and present self-healing. Let us imagine you are out with the love of your life and you notice they are talking to someone who is giving them far more attention than is necessary. You are about to lose your mind and say something. Stop! Notice that shadow and ask yourself why are you feeling this way?
The moment you ask the question, the deeper you understand your shadow. In this scenario the fear of rejection manifested itself and you were about to act out on your shadow. If you give your shadow space in your life you are expanding it. Catch your emotional triggers and you will soon identify repetitive patterns and you will find your shadows, heal and reduce them. Spot the shadow before it manifests!
Gift yourself time and ask yourself
What parts of yourself do you dislike?
What parts of yourself do you judge?
and what parts of yourself do you fear?
The goal of shadow work is integration, eliminating the darkness, the more you shine a light on the shadow the smaller it becomes and does not affect you so much.
Your shadow was born from non-acceptance so don’t antagonise it!
Observation without judgement is the key to self-healing, do not allow your inner critic to judge your shadow. Re the scenario above, catch the shadow, spot the trigger, observe the behaviour and integrate it back into your psyche, reducing that shadow. The more you do this the fewer triggers you will have that antagonise you.
When you are able, spend time alone for a childhood review. Ask yourself.
Was I accepted by those around me?
What was expected of me?
What behaviours and emotions were judged by my parents?
You will soon be introduced to your shadow self and when you spot the shadow aspect just set an intention to heal, and integrate those feelings into your life. Casting light on anything that scares you reduces it allowing you to be untraumatized
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Find your Joy and Live your Life
Currently, the Universal feeling is transformation and we are all riding the highs and lows of this shifting consciousness. A lot is going to change in the months and even the year to come so the question is how does this look for us as individuals? You may feel a need to pause and be still that sense of catching your breath especially if you work hard and drive to always have the next breakthrough. Or you may be seeking self-improvement.
This is a time when you are feeling a need to rest and that may not mean chilling and doing nothing, it may mean that you find joy and fun. For others, it may mean turning off your devices so that you might take a rest from social media etc. It will show up in different ways for different people but you will definitely identify the need to do something different.
Because of this transformational feeling, you will find a new way of being especially if you are identifying triggers from the past. So the transformational change may be personal healing and if you stay aware of what's going on you might be able to just look back on your last few months or your last few years and go wow that was something that really used to bug me but actually It does not trigger me anymore. This is a time where you will notice how far you have come, especially those rapid changes from the past and it now gives you time to make a conscious decision about where you want to be in the future.
So slow it all down and you will see that you're ready for something new.
As you change your habits and patterns you allow a transformation beyond your conditioning and environment allowing you to move into something new.
Transform your psyche your journal to self discovery - Brigid Curran
It always amazes me that we identify ‘as individuals’ but really we are a collective as most feel the same energy changes, we all feel the ebbs and flows of environmental changes.
So although we are alone in this world, our energy is togetherness.
We do live in a state of oneness but with issues around the world and in our individual countries, we still feel connected energy when someone in the collective is hurting. Why do we watch the news? To feel a connectedness.
We all have something in common, we are alive at the same time on earth. We all feel. So, there is a connective thread that we all have. I realise there are individuals who would like to see us more divided as a people but think about it. They have their collective. So, there are pockets of togetherness energy and differences around the Universe. We will never get along, but we have one thing in common we are different and if someone you love is in a different place to you and it makes you feel uncomfortable, or sad, then go through whatever you need to go to help you heal your feelings, it does not necessarily mean it will heal you both but what you will notice is that you can love while also recognising that you don't fully understand.
I always find if something is showing up in the energy, I will notice it showing up very finely in my personal life.
This new phase will see you being able to love and accept other people in a way you never have been able to before. Why? Because you're clear about who they are and you’re clear about who you are and you might never fully understand each other but you have done enough healing to let it go. We need to let go of the idea of loneliness or being alone because we're all alone and together on this planet.
It is going to be an intense Moon in August. I thought I would just give you the heads up on how to handle it. Hi everyone, I hope you are keeping well. The past few months have been a tough time for a lot of you and it warms my heart that you can reach out for guidance. I am honoured to be on your journey as a conduit between you and your guides.
There have been a few dark times for some of you, since mid-July, and this will probably hang around till August 11 as it is slated to shake things up even more intensely as the full moon arrives. As mid-August approaches you will start having clarity that may be different to your thoughts. This could be a time for reinventing yourself as you identify these triggers.
Past life, old souls, soul connections and twin flames will be present in your thoughts this month, be it physical or spiritual. During this time do not be hard on yourself as all those best-laid plans will/may need to be put on hold.
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A butterfly going through metamorphosis is essentially going through a cellular structure. Through the changes, there are new legs and there’s a new body. What does remain from the caterpillar are some of the neural patterns, which means the memories. It’s almost the reverse of what happens to us when we come into this lifetime, we have the freedom to see people without any filters. The Caterpillar keeps a little bit of its brain or memory, but the body, for the most part, changes. What do I mean by this metaphor? The chrysalis must leave its cocoon, the security that is built for itself in that protective shell no longer serves the caterpillar it served its purpose, and it naturally knows when to leave the cocoon and manifests into a butterfly.
As humans, we hold on a bit longer to our security, or what we think is our security, maybe it’s that you’re living in a city or in a relationship, or a job that has run its course and that at one point in the journey it brought you a sense of satisfaction or made you feel like you were expanding but it is no longer doing that and now it’s time to break through. Like the chrysalis stage where the butterfly must break through something dormant, you need to do the same.
When we have this breakthrough, it can be liberating, and this liberation energy allows us to understand the growth on the horizon. The happiness of knowing this can be overwhelming, as it brings a realisation of self-love and self-appreciation, something that can feel foreign to our psyche as it is not a cellular memory. When you come from point A to point B there’s a sense of joy because you realise you can handle anything, and you don’t need that external validation.
Once you align with your purpose, clarity sets a path for you as what has been lost or forgotten has now shown up again. What is meant for you will never pass you by.
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If you found May challenging, June will ease up.
This is a great month to navigate through projects, meet the challenges and figure it out. What is that song! I get knocked down, but I get up again you are never gonna keep me down.
Do not use the past to build a barrier for your future as this new energy will allow the right people to come through for you. Love, Life, Career. So do not have barriers up.
It is a time for expansion, where recognition is coming your way for the hard work you have done.
You probably had to let go of things in the past as the light was shone on situations. You will find that you feel more balanced and focused. It is a month for networking, connecting and a time to be creative and explore.
After June 3rd is about valuing yourself and communicate well. A great time to learn new things. You will be able to stop and smell the roses as you learn to value your self-worth which means gifting yourself more private time and enjoying yourself.
It is a passionate path, so it is a time to be passionate and enjoy life it is not a difficult time. If it, is you may need to have a rethink? You will also find your communication is freer, if you have had a difficult time expressing yourself, you will see that free up. You will feel very connected.
To see the success be authentic, do not suppress any part of yourself as it will filter in another aspect of yourself. Be yourself and express yourself and you will see that reflect to you. Quirky is fun!
Teamwork makes a dream work, if you do not have support around you, find your community of like-minded people who accept you as you are. This new group will be so powerful. Let go of those who do not believe in you.
Rejection feels horrible, especially if you are a sensitive person. Understand that when you express yourself creatively and you are authentic that is all that matters. Drop the dead wood, the non-believers. If you believe in yourself, others will.
Now your star signs
Aries. – Your drive and energy will be lifted, and you will flourish.
Taurus – Your creativity is important to you this month, experience an old skill.
Gemini- This is your moon, so embrace your individuality. A great time to meet new people. Try not to be negative and embrace new ideas. A new makeover perhaps.
Cancer- Seize the day and be self-confident. This is your time. Make magic happen. If it feels good, do it. If it doesn’t don’t.
Leo- You may feel a push to be more social this month. Take a trip with a few friends or a group and this will be richly rewarding for you.
Virgo- This is a time of goals and rewards. A great time to learn something new, change jobs, home. It is about improving your finances, believe in your intuition and seek advice with contracts.
Libra- You will feel more spontaneous this month, you may want to stimulate your mind. This is a very confident month giving you a bit more freedom. You are very attractive at this time so if you are single, opportunities may open for you.
Scorpio – You may seek different opportunities and you may even relate to people differently. Home and relationships may be difficult, you may have someone being very honest with you for a change.
Sagittarius- June is a great time to interact with people, this is a good time to change jobs where you are supportive. Like a manager, team leader. Watch the stress this month so balance your life this month. A busy time for you. You may find yourself in a relationship this month
Capricorn- Balance with health. Small changes will make a big impact. You are such good company as you are getting older your sense of humour and sex appeal will be heightened.
Aquarius- A very skilled communicator. Use your panache to win and influence. Do not let your lack of self confidence get in the way. Do not worry how you fit in. This is a positive time for you. If there is someone special that you are interested in reach out to them.
Pisces- Emotional thinking for you this month. Be careful in your words do not blurt things out. A financial time for you which may allow you to move from where you live or improve where you live.
A month of great energy. If you have been working on projects this is a great time where you will see your perseverance pays off.
In regards to COVID we may see a spike this month so prepare yourself to be able to work the way you want to work.
May 19th, 2022
A Month of Vulnerability
This May post is a bit late due to the vulnerability of the Month and the Season. The next few months will be a time to build bridges, make amends and reconnect with people. This is a season that is encouraging you to think with your heart, not your head.
I posted on Facebook and Instagram the other day about your sensitivity being powerful, especially for Empaths. We are often taught that to be sensitive is negative. Without sensitivity, you are unable to have empathy. Empathy in a person is power as when you are not thinking with your head you are able to create amazing opportunities. Connect with people and make solid decisions. May started as an interesting month, as it feels like our sense of identity, is being questioned, not by others, but by ourselves. You may even be feeling a little anxious, but unable to identify why. The reason for this energy is difficult to understand, that is why it manifests as a healing month. You may find your body asking for attention. This is a time to reflect on what you are doing on a daily basis. Are there elements of your life or body you want to change? This could be a great time to source people who can help you. This season is about connecting with people that will inspire you and help you find ways to improve.
You may also find that your friends may feel distant and you do not have a lot in common with them. That is only temporary and will pass. It will also mean that people from the past will reconnect to build a bridge with you. What you decide to do there is up to you, but remember heart not head.
This season is very much about learning, getting out and meeting new people and starting something new.
After years of restrictions, it is vital you step out of your comfort zone and talk to different people. Doing this will open up new opportunities for you and set you in a direction that you never imagined. Not only will you feel less anxious but you will be inspired to set a plan for your future where goals AND PEOPLE will exceed your expectation.
For those of you who may be struggling day to day, take a moment when you wake to acknowledge the day with gratitude. Even if it is just being awake. As every day in every way, it does get better.
For those who cannot understand why your decisions are not panning out the way you expect. Then just Stop. Put it aside, do not think about it for a couple of days and you will gain clarity. When you are too much in your head, nothing ever works. Remember Heart, not Head. We have all done it, where we race around the house looking for something, give up, for it to appear when you are not thinking about it as you are looking for something else. That you cannot find!
My advice to you reader, be kind, heal yourself if your body is tired or unwell and make decisions based on the way it feels to you. Place logic in the cupboard for now. You can find it later when you are looking for something.
It appears that everyone is releasing something this month.
I have the wizard of oz in my head, which means you are finding your place, maybe a new job, or home or you could be seeking that feeling of home.
10 Wands- it is time to release. Seek that place that you call home.
May will see you receiving those blessings. This means a change, something in your life will change allowing you to receive the recognition you deserve.
Have you been feeling out of sorts lately? We will look at that later.
I have the feeling of energy exchange. This means ideas, energy, and gifts. Sharing those hidden talents, gifts, skills or abilities that you have overlooked within yourself. Watch them manifest this month.
This energy will allow you to use your hidden talents, gifts, skills or ability that make you special or unique.
While you move into this May energy do not take things too seriously. The universe wants you to have more fun and wants you to do something different. This is how manifestation happens.
Does it feel like you have a plan but do not know how to implement it?
Do you have that feeling of something missing in your life? What are you thinking about? It is a time for action put your plans in place. If you want to change your work, start looking. If you want new opportunities and friends, be open and seek.
Put the work in and you will manifest it, but you have to start now and let go of the past.
The collective is going through an energy change. So it is about taking that step into what the change could look like. Let go of your past, let go of things that do not work. This transformational energy is vital to you so that you do not remain stagnant it will set you into a life of feeling free.
Come on collective! Let us take it to the next level. Are you procrastinating? Now is the time to shift the energy.
It is a time to do things differently which will allow the choices to come in as you are at this crossroads.
It is a time of picking a new path in your life which means it is about learning from past situations and knowing that history will not repeat itself this time.
If you feel like you’re being pushed into a situation at this time and you are unsure. I would sleep on it with this energy there is no point forcing something to happen.
If you want love in your life or you want to do something you love, if you are in a relationship, I would let your guard down, feel the joy and be open to this.
Everyone has been receiving the message of moving and just doing it. Everyone is feeling exhausted or in a place of exhaustion.
It is a vital time to manifest what you (As above so below energy)
You will feel you are being tested by the Universe, as the blessings are there, but it requires a strong belief, a tenacity to keep going and breaking through this exhaustion energy.
Finally. May will bring you special moments and great things. I feel the blessings and gifts are there but it’s going to require a lot of belief.
If you want Love, Open up to it.
If you have failed, try again.
Most of all be kind to yourself
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.